card drawn – 7 of pentacles (position – reversed)
First, even if you are, stop being the victim. Not forgiving is fine, but also you need to learn to let go of the Grudges, as this anger is making you resent both your own sense of self and that of others. It’s this that will help you learn to focus less on your environment and more on yourself, while you let yourself the permission to be happy. It’s only your own intrusive mind holding you back from enjoying things.